For the first time in my life I think I am feeling really and truly happy. I am finding that I am not lying to those around me and telling them that I am ok just to put their hearts at ease while I am slowly and surely tearing myself apart. Every smile is now genuine and I am slowly learning to just feel every little happy, sad moment again without hiding behind a shield.
I have friends that love and care about me, and I have learned to love and respect myself as well. But most importantly I am learning to trust.
It is ok to feel frustrated, angry, and sad. Nobody can be all smiles all the time. It's a combination of all those those emotio